je ferais n'importe quoi pour vous

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 05:17:17 GMT

Liar, liar, pants on fire.

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 07:52:18 GMT

arlyne andrevil hates herself.

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 20:46:24 GMT

Ditto colleeny.

school

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 13:47:57 GMT

I wish I had started caring earlier. Its not hard.

nervous

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 23:13:34 GMT

I'm currently at the shubert.sittin in seat J-101, updating my lj on my super cute pink blackberry. Tonight I'm on my own. I'm nervous. I'm left wall mezz and I hope I don't fuck up. I love working here, hannah, and the firm. I'm upside down right now and I need to talk to someone but I know I won't so there's no point in even mentioning it.I'm unhappy but I shouldn't be. Actually, I take that back, I have every right to be.

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 03:51:12 GMT

The best part was seeing BEAR.

Mon, 12 May 2008 05:46:44 GMT

1. Got my license
2. Got a job at chilli's with hannah rose emerson
3. I shaved my head

:)

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 05:51:15 GMT

THIS PICTURE IMMORTALIZES THE MOST FUN I HAVE EVER HAD INSIDE A STOP & SHOP.
possibly the most fun i have ever had in my entire LIFE.
and i can never tell you why!
♥

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 04:30:42 GMT

i want things to happen for me so I'm going to make them happen.
I think of myself as a headstrong, driven person which is perfect because i want so much and i have so many hopes and dreams. If i want something bad enough, I'm gonna get it bygumm! is that how you spell bygumm?

anyway i love my friends and i miss them because they're all in vermont :(

except Hannah, i luvvv me some Hannah Emerson somethin fierce!!!!

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 21:51:39 GMT

i'm gunna see colleeny tonight la la la la la! :)

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 05:21:39 GMT

it's hard to be a catch.
im super lonely :/
met a nice boy at work today!
he said i was great!

well... i am! :)
we're all great.

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 05:29:04 GMT

my lovely cat compliments me very well :)

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 04:57:03 GMT

so lets talk about how uncomfortable and awkward a day i had today.
why you may ask?:

i had to talk to the head manager about how Victor makes me feel "uncomfortable."
That's right... i had to file a sexual harassment claim.

when Carlene paged me to the back so that he could apologize, sweet Lord how awkward was that.

i miss my friends. i miss my friends. I FUCKING MISS MY FRIENDS!!!!

I can't believe have to go to fucking Canada in a day! OMG SOMEBODY STAB ME PLEASE!!!

COLLEENY:i miss you so very much. i really really do. Today i wished more than ever that you worked at Capezio too so that i could have talked to you about my scary experiences (that i'm obviously not describing right now) and you would have hugged me and probably said, "Oh haha baby it's okay!" and you would have stroked my face and looked at me with those piercing blue eyes and made me feel so better. So better? You would have made me feel better when i wanted to cry bc i didn't want to go into the stockroom all by myself. :/ <-- discontented face!
God bitch, why can't you work with me?!

Nanners: miss you too. you make me laugh. HARD. i miss you. Goddamn i miss you. hope schools going good. It's probably not though. but i hope it is. Even if it's not. Sunday was our Christmas party (i know. a lil late folks!) and we went to Dave and Busters and were chillen waitin for a table, and i had to pee, and realized that you weren't there. Rebecca was like, I'll go with you, and thought that was really nice and i loved her for peeing with me, but walkng to the bathroom i was so sad bc i wasn't going with you :(
Why i ever leave your side i will never know. You're great. Spectacular even!

i just left you that comment on your facebook btw. about reading my livejournal. :) i thought you might like to know!

**

Just to let you all know though, minus the misery of lonlieness w/o my umbrellas all week ( OH AND ALSO!: CHUCKY WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN YOU FAG?! everytime i hear Rhianna and Taylor swift and Miley Cyrus at work i think of you and know you're probs working to, and hope you're thinking of me. all sad and shit.)
I'm really happy. I LOVE MY JOB.
I LOVE MY JOB.I super really do. and i think to myself how lucky i am to work there almost everyday. esp. when i see people coming in who are auditioning and need character shoes or who walk in and are like, WOW! this place is so cool! i mean a store full of leotards and dance paraphernalia?! AWESOME! It's like.. wow. I am so glad i have this job because it's theatre related and i get to meet famous people like OMG! MIA MICHEALS last last week who was looking for unitards! I was thinking how awesome it would be to meet her a couple days before, and WHAMO! there she was.
And Debbie Allen came is Sunday. That was awesome, bc she was super nice and i helped her find Team Basic leotards. Go Me.

**

Last night, i downloaded a billion 90's rmantic love songs. Like Lady in Red, You're The Inspiration, etc... i'm having a great time listening to it all right now on shuffle because i'm a corny gay and i love 90's love songs okay?!

**

Last but not least!
After Canada, I'm going to RI to visit my beautiful amazing wifey and i can't wait because i miss her bunches and truckloads. Holy shit Smashley and Leany together again <3333!!!!!

FIN. =]
kbye ilu and leave me loads of comments please. I enjoy the interaction of comments!

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 06:12:42 GMT

i love Oprah.

and rice crispy treats are the only treat i CANNOT RESIST.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 19:00:29 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)
this one is gonna be such a good one... i can't wait for everything to happen

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 07:27:50 GMT

so as we all know, oregon trail is the greatest game ever created. This is no secret. However, my friends can never be on my team again!
First chucky got annoyed with me, but i mean... what else is new? But then He got Cholera and the fucking Colleen got bitten by a mother fucking snake!
COLLEEN! WHAT WERE YOU DOING PLAYING WITH THE SNAKE?! YOU KNOW AS WELL AS I DO THAT THE KANSAS RIVER CROSSING IS DANGEROUS!
you better not die on me bitch...
and to make matters perfect, Aubrey came down with a nasty case of the measles!
ALL I KNOW HOW TO DO IS HUNT BISON. HOW AM I GOING TO NURSE ALL THESE PEOPLE BACK TO HEALTH?!

Other than that, things are going well.
I'm really tired but i wanna tell you all about work!It was really lovely, it's weird being the new kid because everyone is pretty comfortable with each other already so... yeah. But everyone's really nice and i know i'll like them. So i filled out alot of paper work and read alot of shit with the manager Francine, who seems to run a very tight ship but everyone seems to like her none-the-less. And after my break, i pretty much just sauntered around touching things :) making sure they looked good and so fourth. I'm just excited to start working for real. Like helping people and shit. That'll be fun.

fuck. Day 39. I died of Cholera, and Danielle Bova desperately needs to shower. In a way, i'm glad i went first because Colleen was on the verge of death and i didn't want to watch her die.

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 08:32:49 GMT

TONIGHT WAS AMAZING.

viva danielle and the dutchess dinner.

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 20:41:02 GMT

This is what i think. Everyone listen to arlyney:
the female body, the human body for that matter, is a BEAUTIFUL thing. I am SICK AND TIRED of the media and how they portray "beauty". who says a size 2 makes you beautiful? i think someone who wears a size 18 is JUST as beautiful as someone who wears a size 6.
It is absolutely DISGUSTING what is considered 'fat'.
And another thing, it's almost like being overweight is a death sentence. Jeez it makes me want to throw up sometimes.

every curve, lump, bump, crevice, and dimple on his or her body, is not something that someone else should be concerned about, or judge. Overweight people are not monsters. They have just as much a right to go to Mcdonalds and eat a Big mac as you do. That's why Mcdonalds is there! To give big macs to the people!
The problem is not with people overeating these foods, it's that these foods are addictive! Granted I've stopped eating fast food and i actually REALLY like fruits and vegetables over french fries, but just because everyone doesn't like fruits and vegetables, i'm not going to go to the nearest burger joint and through rocks at the chubby men walking in, and tell them to lose some weight.

The reason i had to write this out is because of the fabulous Jennifer Love Hewitt.
everyone's making fun of her because of her honeymoon piccys: http://www.splashnewsonline.com/2007/11/28/guess-who-booty-edition/

leave her alone.
JLH is to fat, Britney is to fat, Mary-kate is to thin. Nicole is anorexic.
Jesus what do you want from them?
let them have ther cake and eat it too.

* look up anti fat on lj under interests.
Here's what i have to say to those groups:
just because a person is overweight, it does not give you the right to rip them apart and reconstruct them based on your ideas of what beautiful is. what sexy is. I'm DAMN sexy in a size 12 ok? thnx.
And i'm going to be damn sexy in a size 8, 6, or 4... or whatever i end up with. My jean size does not equal who i am. Being overweight may be unhealthy, but who are you to call someone a disgusting pig just because of it? People can just be SO cruel sometimes.

my conclusion:
i have to become an activist for positive body image and 'fat acceptance'. i hate that it there needs to be an organization for that kind of thing but there is. My life is so much more comfortable just because i have a good head on my shoulders and i'm comfortable in my own skin. It just makes me sad that with the way beauty is portrayed in the media and so fourth, not everyone can feel this way.

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 01:41:55 GMT

Dear friends,
I got the job!
<3 Leany

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS: every things looking up :D

(I'm kind of in awe of the fact that i cheated the system and passed my drug test. I engaged in illegal activity and won.... wow... imagine the possibilities.....)
now i can save up for shit which is pretty sweet :) and better yet I FINALLY have a job omg!

I'm oh so very happy!

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 17:20:12 GMT

"No Rory. This great man was not brought down by my vagina."

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 05:57:31 GMT

its so nice to be home :)

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 04:36:14 GMT

i sucked it up and took my final even though it was half ass and shit, at least i did it <3

my Capezio interview was stellar and i have to schedule my drug test for monday.

&
ANTHONY JOHN MENDOZZA WAS AT MY SCHOOL TODAY!
it was unreal! i wish i could have talked to him longer. :/
i wonder how he's doing.

I'm volunteer ushering for the Signature Theatre Company on Saturday
and the Roundabout Theatre Company on wednesday. I also lned up more stuff for January and February. No one cares, but i am so excited because i'm going to be learning so much and it's going to be a great experience for me! I'm taking the innitiative and putting theatre back in my life and I'm very happy about that.

"It's all happening." :)
and if there's a point where it's NOT happening for me, i'm going to MAKE it happen for me :) i need
* new head shots
* money $$$
*`a job***
* sheet music
* and i REALLY want to be able to join a GYROTONICS/GYROKENESIS gym! what makes me SO in love with exercising is the feeling of my muscles working with my body and gyrotonics is a mind body system that i'm so into! i promise you, your going to visit me, and i'm going to be taking wheat grass shakes in the morning and eating the best kind of foods like ... ever.

alas! we'll see sow everything turns out :) i have big plans! i really like where i'm taking my life. i cant wait to see how the journey unfolds.
:)

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 17:38:10 GMT

i have an interview at 5 with Capezio today sweet victory!

My final in Existential Psychology is 24 minutes away, i didn't do my 8-10 page paper, and i don't really see the point of going so i just don't think i will...
Please don't judge me. :)

I don't owe Wagner College anything. This really doesn't matter to me enough to do anything about it.
I'm just more or less annoyed by the fact that i have to do it.

I don't feel as though i'm burning bridges. And i don't think that i will come to regret this later. Or at least i hope i wont.

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 22:20:37 GMT

i need to go home so that i can recenter myself again.
i'm miserable and I HATE EV-ER-RE-ONE. at least at 5:20 pm.
oh and except ashley. she's really important to me.

I'm this close to jumping on a train, saying "FUCKFINALS" and never looking back. but that would be bad hunh?

WHAT DO GRADES MATTER ANYWAY?!

are my capabilities REALLY determined by a letter?
I am NOT a letter.
who cares if i fail intro to psychology? i don't.
and in the end, i'm all that matters. i have to live with myself after all. I'd be happier far far away.

today's my brothers birthday. he's 17 today.

*just as a clarifying point, what makes me so miserable at wagner is that i'm not doing theater, and therefore, i am not happy. i feel like i'm stuck here, and i HAVE to do this this and that. i HAVE to find something else to do, and i'm just like... umm... no. no i don't.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 17:09:55 GMT

i have to take a drug test for Capezio before i can be hired... fuck.
i havent smoked in a couple of days but... i don't know if that will be enough.
and i dont know when it will be.

as of this morning, i've lost 34 pounds.
yayyy

i hate hate hate HATE school. hate it.
thank god today was the last day of classes.

tap tomorrow yayy :)